Grieving My Sister Deeply

Grief is complicated. And when someone dies while your relationship with them is unresolved, grief can carry even more layers.

In this deeply personal episode of the Living Deeply Podcast, I share what it has been like grieving the loss of my sister, knowing that we were not on the best of terms when she passed.

I’m processing love, regret, anger, guilt, fear, sadness, and the painful realization that there are conversations we will never get to have. At the same time, I’m still showing up for my family and trying to figure out how to make space for my own grief.

I was taught to pray about pain, give it to God, and trust that everything would eventually be okay. But I’m discovering that my healing requires something different.

I have to feel it.

I have to process it.

I have to shed it.

I have to release it.

Through crying, music, nature, writing, reflection, spiritual connection, and simply allowing myself to feel what I actually feel, I’m learning how to let these emotions move through me instead of allowing them to overtake me.

This episode isn’t about having grief figured out. I don’t.

It’s about learning that I can miss my sister and still acknowledge our complicated relationship. I can regret things without punishing myself forever. I can be angry and still love her. And I can release some of what I’m carrying without releasing my love for her.

If you’re grieving someone you loved but had a complicated or unresolved relationship with, this episode is for you.

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